istandwithmycancelledwife: (Some people dream of the club life)
Kalim Al-Asim ([personal profile] istandwithmycancelledwife) wrote in [personal profile] snizier 2024-12-08 02:49 am (UTC)

The feeling that it's usually him making Jamil mad is exactly why he wants to know. Before, whenever he was worried about Jamil bottling things up too much and overblotting again, he could just think, well, it'll be over soon! (and then pointedly not also worry about what that would be like for himself) – but now that he knows Jamil is completely resigned to doing this forever, Kalim has absolutely no way of reassuring himself that Jamil's resentment won't kill him. He's grasping at straws here – maybe if Jamil tells him when he's mad at him, he can stop doing whatever it is that's making him mad and it'll be okay?

It doesn't feel like a particularly great plan. Curry trauma was kind of easier to compartmentalise than overblot trauma has been. But he's still relieved when Jamil agrees; a small smile makes its way back onto his face, and he looks at him with much more gratitude than that half-hearted promise warrants.

"Thanks, Jamil. I really will try hard not to make things tough for you!"

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